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So they switched me to night shift again which is fine. But now I'm being trained to be a supervisor. I hope the citizens of GTMO are shaking in their little keds because they should be very afraid.
I really love playing Hayasen. I know he's only a NPC but he's so much fun to play. He's basically a combination of House and all my Drill Sergeants rolled into one. And how people react off him is exactly how myself and battles reacted off our DSes. Your first initial reaction is, "Wow, what an asshole." I've been sort of playing off Hayasen off Jamie because of the Tanabata plot.
Shinobu wished that Masa and Ryu have a public humiliation. So I had to think of one for Masa. Masa is hard to embarass. Masa has a huge secret that Hayasen now knows but he maybe an asshole, but he does have a heart. If anything, it sort of pissed him off. I mean, "I do this because my family" is one of the oldest excuses in the book. Something the DSes told us. No one cares if your father beat you etc. What matters is how you dealt with it. But anyways, what Hayasen ended up doing was dragging masa to class because Masa tried to skip. Then he berated him for being a slacker. He had the abilities to be great but ran away from it all because he was afraid of himself.
I stole that from one incident that happened during Basic Training. I've told some of you about it already because it had a huge impact on me. Now, background for those of you who don't know, my left hand is deformed. I have a cogitnal defect. My fingers didn't grow all the way. I got a waiver for the army (just told I couldn't do certain things). I tried to hide in the first couple weeks of Basic Training. Did what I was told to hide from the DS wrath. But it didn't last long. I fell from the pull up bars because it was wet and my hand is weak because I don't use it much. The DSes all knew me from then on but they never chided me for it. Ever. As one of told me, it said a lot about my character. I joined even when I had it. And they had me do excercises to strengthen it. As the Company Commander told me, "You will be able to do one pull up when you leave here, understand that?" And with their help, I was able to.
Anyways, CPT Slaughter. CPT Damien Slaughter was the name of our company commander. Best name ever in my opinion. He may have taken rank from me, but I still have a lot of respect for the guy. It was obstacle course day with a lot of ropes and a lot of climbing to great heights. Seriously, if you are afraid of heights, the army is so not for you. DS Crater and CPT Slaughter both said to me that they wanted me to try at least with jungle gyms and the rope bridges. If I couldn't, do 20 push ups and recover. They also asked if I was afraid of heights. I jokingly said I'm not afraid of heights, just falling from them... which is true. I went through it all... falling from the rope bridges, splitting my lip, bloody nose but I finished.
There was one girl who refused to do the obstacles involving heights. You don't refuse in Basic Training. The DSes will not make you do something that will kill you. Anyways, she made a huge scene and a big fuss about it. CPT Slaughter called me over in front of the formation and called her out. "Cordner, hold up your hand." I did so. And he went off on her. Told her that how dare she let fear act her like that when she is fully physically capable of doing every single obstacle citing me as someone who is physically incapable of doing some but I still tried anyway. He even asked if I was afraid. I told him I was of falling. And he cited how I did it anyway. My bruises and cuts and my fat lip and bloody nose were indicators. Then he said, "I would cut off your hand and give it to her because she has more heart than you."
I always imagined how embarrassed she was but that always struck a chord with me. Everyone in that formation remembered that speech too. Fear is something everyone can overcome. Fear is also a natural state of being. It is purely what you do with it. And if you are physically capable to do something but don't because you're afraid, it is an insult to those who can't.
That girl? She got held back because she wouldn't do the tower. Her basic training was longer than it needed to be.
Anyways, I do enjoy Masa and Hayasen. It reminds me of two things: Good Will Hunting and every talk I ever had with a sergeant I highly respected.
And gah, I need to get ready for night shift. I will talk more about Hayasen and stuff later.
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